I want to live in short sentences and love in free, long paragraphs, without punctuation.  I want someone to turn my pages, underline my soul and add sidenotes to every depth of me.  I want to get through each chapter of this heart without the heavy edits of the should’ve, could’ve, would’ve.  I want my life to be the empty book I borrowed, to fill wit messy wonder and return, unfinished, like any other soulful business.  I want my words to be a lamp for tired eyes that light it back on fire.  I want, I want, I want… always these restless words, always this crushing all. @creativerehab {#andreabalt)

you ready for this? cause tbh i wasn’t at all in 2018. i lived out loud and then silently. just taking everything in. i formed stronger/better relationships and was part of many unforgettable moments that i will cherish for a lifetime. i lived this #onelife SO hard. everything that happened had to happen when it needed to happen for me to learn the significance of this version of me which i have been busy curating for the last 2-3 years.  you are ALWAYS exactly where you NEED to be. bao

Love hard. Get your heart broken into pieces. Cry. Suffer. Explore. Wear your scars with pride. Allow life to teach you in its mysterious ways. Risk it all. Lose everything. Gain it all back. The only guarantee we have is that everything is going to change. So knowing that, you should really just take a chance and go for it anyway. Play to win. Don’t play to not lose.  -@TheBetterManProject


my heart broke into pieces this year and it forced me to coast (again). i let the current of everyday life take me from one feel to another, one heart melt to another heart melts, one candid moment to another non-candid moment. i blinked, woke up each morning with little to no regard to mending my broken heart, instead allowed moments to slip through to restore the cracks. everything went on hold and chose note to commit to any goals.


Happiness is letting every situation be what it is instead of what you think it should be, and then making the most of it. -@momentaryhappiness


never stop being curious. this was a year of learning. figuring out what works, what doesn’t. what should and what shouldn’t, chosing vs doing, and most of all… self awareness

to be alive is to feel things deeply. to be true to the world, you must become the world. There’s no way out but through. -@andreabalt

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coming across this photo more than halfway through this year was a wake-up call. this year is flying by so fast and i find myself in a stand-still. being 30 makes me want to solidify a lot of things in my life.

Today has a reason and a purpose. Today you can clearly see what’s already happened and you can directly affect what is to be.


this was my favorite attempt at customizing my layout late last year. i also started to implement bits&pieces segments and hope to carry it out for as long as i can.

being happy doesn’t mean everything is perfect – you know what i mean jellybean?

the real name is not sheneki but it can fly for this. i’m a woman with a lot of creative potential. i’m something different to a few, something special for chosen ones, and something extra-ordinary to the ones who’s stayed true.

i’m a girlfriend, daughter, bestfriend, and an employee. i’m never fully satisfied, always wanting more, and expects nothing less. i am inspired by little things that make out the big picture. this is just the beginning, a never ending beginning of trials and tribulations and i’m all about WYSIWYG~

i inspire, i give advice and live through experiences like a guru, but deep inside i know nothing. it’s about feeling and not knowing. everything is unexpectedly expected.

i have 2 girls by my side and they are my lifelines. through good times and bad, they are at my side and i am at theirs. they come first after my mom. it’s a bond that i’m proud to have and is definitely worth fighting for. i am not who i am without them, they are my sanctuary. most people call their significant others as this, but right now at this point of my life, nothing is more solid than these 2. we may not agree at most times and may have fought on more than one occasion but they are my life until i’m off to the next chapters.

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