baby steps has led me here. what have i reached today – i’m at the i can do it stage (insert smiley face here). i’ve realized that i can’t keep waiting for something to happen and just let it happen for myself. i’ve decided i will take advantage of the resources i have and just take the leap. i am doing a laterral move within Research Now and i have taken the i’ll try to do it phase and now it’s just a matter of waiting and going through the formalities.
i love the culture in my company and find that it’s great place to work despite all its many misconceptions. i just hope that moving will still make me love the place. what is the next step; Project Management – hoping for a title of project manager. there i’d like to stay a while and really excel – i hope to learn about processes, real project management, problem solving, problem solving with the client, and organization. these are all the things i loved to do but have lost along the way as the years went by due to change of scopes in my current position, etc. etc. i googled real quick before writing and this i must read before the weekend is over New Role. So this weekend will be spent at home with jony and cranking out our resume together and brainstorming of possible interview scenarios. so hopefully, by Monday i would have submitted my resume and it’s just a waiting game after that.
enough about me though. tonight J left for Vegas with his high school buddies for a bachelor long weekend. blah blah blah, i’m going to miss him. but it’s not just me who’s taking a leap of faith this week, he’s also taking a big leap – skydiving. he’s excited, scared, and more excited. i hope i get a call in a couple of days with him telling me the story of him actually doing it. i wish one day that i can earn enough courage to take that type of leap… but fear about this always just gets the best of me. whatever happened to the fearless side of me. i think it has left the building. (oh gosh the Evil Dead remake just played and as i looked up there was this kid in a little crack on the floor – creepy looking girl saying “i’m gonna get you” – looking like a better version of the exorcist girl – sigh – change topic – delete from memory).
i know a lot of girls would be worried about their man spending a weekend with their boys in Vegas. but i trust J, he’s never given me any reason not to trust him and i really hope he keeps it that way. i’ll act all worried to make sure he knows that there is still that doubt but overall i can honestly say i trust the guy. he’s been loyal and honest with me – honest enough to say he would tell me if something happened. as long as he still looks at me the way he does with his eyes proving that he’s longing to be with me, as long as he hugs me like he never wants to let me go then i’m good. (J – i know you’re reading this. be good babe! love you)
tomorrow is this short week’s friday. we’re doing the Harlem Shake at work and i need to figure out an outfit – it’s supposed to be a canadian theme but i feel like wearing my Philippines shirt. goodnight babe. facetime you tomorrow. have fun!!!!
a lot of bloggers are always trying to keep current on what’s going on in other blogs. as per usual, i have procrastinated my May hobby. As it appears, this may be the last week that i am able to use my injury as an excuse to hit the gym. (side story – flew out of a golf cart at the beginning of the month for a golf outing for work). but that only gives me today and/or tomorrow to finish my project. this week will be hectic as J and i try to execute a long thought about summer cleaning for the balcony. we haven’t hosted a party for the past couple of years here in my apartment because the place is in much need of updating. just to list a few, i need to take back my balcony from the ever growing pigeon abomination that has terrorized and claimed my balcony for the last couple of years. mom and i want to buy new couches, because let’s face it, our couch is about 10 million years old (gr.9 to me)… and i need a real self bought bed set that is bigger than a twin.
the title of this entry is cravings for a reason. i want all of these things and this year instead of vacationing outside of the country, i’ve just been dreaming of the things that i want instead of traveling. it would be much easier if i had an option to credit all the wishlist that i have but unfortunately that is not an option still as i recover from my finances. but technically instead of wondering where all my money went, i can just look at my future furnishings and think to myself; hello pretty furniture, i am broke because of you. it is afterall a long term investment for my next topic, a new item on my craves list – a Bungalow!!! yeah that’s right, on top of a decent used car, i want a bungalow for a home. i want to be able to say this is where all my money is going – my own bungaloooo. but i guess it’s good to start with baby steps. all the furniture will not be bought in credit so technically i won’t be too much in debt once i have saved up enough for the down payment. it feels good to dream of all the material things before bed isn’t it? is there a meaning to dreaming about winning a lottery of some sort, well i think it was more of a draw than an actual lottery… (so i went out and bought myself a heart&stroke ticket – i mean it is for a good cause at the end of the day – i wish i win a car or 1/25 cash prize of $250,000 – or something). wish me luck on that one as i list some more cravings that i’ve been thinking about lately.
if i win the cash i would invest the 200K towards my bungalow, the other 50K would be invested in the following:
of course an all expense paid trip to NYC; shopping til’ i drop for a few thousands… oh to crave and dream right. maybe if i think positive enough, it will come true. but heck what are the chances… i only bought the 1 lucky ticket out of millions of entries most likely. who knows, next time i can actually blog about the hauls and updates my life has taken after being financially able to get the things that were craved for in this entry. to dream tonight of new dreams to come true in the near and distant future. until then – i’m outtie.
updated my layout again.
then tried to catch up as much as i can on my photo365 on tumblr, all the while also catching up on a few shows i missed last week. wasn’t paying attention much but as usual somehow Grey’s Anatomy has a way of surprising me with it’s insightful quote at the end.
Meredith: You can seek the advice of others, surround yourself with trusted advisors. But in the end, the decision is always yours and yours alone. And when it’s time to act and you’re all alone with your back against the wall, the only voice that matters is the one in your head. The one telling you what you already knew. The one that’s almost always right.