dear mbp

i am lending you to jen. don’t worry she will take care of you and use you so much you will finally feel useful. this is my last post on you for the next year or possibly close to forever…

i have always wanted you, but i now have so many options outside of you. my lapachka will be installing PSP on his desktop and it is more powerful. i finally got a new laptop at work… the cloud helps to sync all of my files.

just know that getting you was a big milestone in my life and everyone that knows me or knew me, knew how special getting you was. it may sound crazy to those that reads this but i am very sentimental with materialistic things, i give importance to  items i own. the things that are in my bag, in my room, at his place, at work, all of these items although sometimes questionable are all a piece of me. the me i curated. the me that i am, the me i am about to be, that me that i am shaping myself to be or want to be in the future.

thank you for all the late nights. all the acquaintances and friendships you helped form. another chapter is closing and this is def a good thing.

ka-ar-ti-han. the end.




fuel your soul


i have been feeling inspired cause life is good. geeked out so hard on instagram last night, trickling into today. i’m pretty impressed with the outcome. but time to focus back into tasks oustanding. i still have to pour my creativity into creating a poster guestbook for justin’s christening. also i should eat – enjoy your evening.

Source: “I’m not looking for a fling. I’m looking for someone to plant flowers in my soul. someone made of water and sunlight. someone who knows how to pour themselves just to help me grow.” -r.m. drake


Mood: not a bad thing by JT

One day I will have it all… the kid + caring husband + (maybe) dog, filling the backyard with so much laughter and tears. It doesn’t have to have the fanciest car on the driveway or have the greatest looking house (inside or out) situated at the front. It just needs to be livable with a list of fixes that are wants but not necessarily needed. My mom playing on her phone or tablet on a hammock that is swinging.

This dream of mine I experienced in real life last Sunday at Laile & Ace’s home. It’s not completely their own, they live with Laile’s family but it tugged at my heartstrings even more when her fam emerged. Her dad had his friends over, her brother and his wife waking up from a nap and her other brother finally reaching with his own lil fam. The older brother offering anything and everything – being the hospitable man I see he is, and her lil brother being ordered to grab her bike to fix and tune. I envied in a good way, more feeling inspired and I’m glad my cousin Ace scored such a commendable woman with sass, wit, and down to earth qualities. She def carries her own! The more I interact with her the more blessed I feel to have her tied to my family… ok that’s enough I’m getting choked up with this post for many different reasons not mentioned. Let’s break out in laughter at this moment instead…