Single Life: First CMB Date/Meet-Up

Back in the day, you converse and crush on each other for a bit and then one of you make a move. I got kissed today because we played pool and I lost… enough times. I’m in the subway now and I’m spinning trying to figure out how I really feel. Ok let’s try this….How am I still so unsure about meeting someone new? I keep asking myself over and over.

Earlier today I admitted I felt like crying. For what?! It’s completely over, it’s beyond over actually so why am I holding back? This guy I met today just got out of a serious relationship 5 months ago… me over a year ago and I’m still acting like my old single but not single self. This guy was a pretty good candidate, paid for most of the date (I got him a shot), awesome convo that I can keep up with, funny… when I won by default I should’ve asked him for a hug instead of another kiss… equals cuddly. How many kisses did we do? 3-4?Maybe more(?) Plus I had to give him a kiss on his cheek cause that’s how all that started.

He has cute dimples. He noticed mine. He showed me pictures of his brother and sister. He’s a cook but wants to pursue teaching. He’s shorter than I imagined, but taller enough than me… why would that bother me. Why does it bother me? What’s supposed to happen now? Does it matter? There’s no investment there, I really need to stop associating dating with relationships. How do I get romanticized the way I imagine it? There’s no rule book. I’d like to believe it’s either there or it’s not, right?

Let me stop spinning for a second and admit it went great. He didn’t say any swooning words like how pretty my hair is, I smell nice, I’m cute…none of that was mentioned… but he went for a kiss. Does that mean he liked me enough to want to kiss my lips? idk idk idk idk lolsadface

I’m pretty certain this guy is talking to other girls. I’ve seen the line-up for guys on CMB, I kinda know what I’m up against. This guy also admitted he gets about 20 being suggested to him, me on the other hand gets 0-1. I couldn’t remember how I found him but he mentioned he did do a video… I’m pretty sure I used my free like on him there. Those 5 second videos are seriously funnier than Vine, and everyone knows how much I like Vine.

Now I question, if he asks me out, do I say yes? Do I like him enough to entertain him some more? He kinda still know some Cantonese to save his life.

Yes I was late. I’m going to end this one now cause I’m feeling sleepy – no need for help here.


___goodnight in Japanese, cause he mentioned he liked anime.

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