after a long hiatus

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here i am back to my little piece of online space. (hey whatever happened to the www in most urls? just tried googling an answer and no such luck, maybe i’ll ask the IT guy on Monday, when i’m back at work).

for most of this year, i would visit this online space only to find that i was unhappy with my layout. so that’s all i would obsess about and then suddenly it’s time to go to sleep without being able to write anything down.

then there’s also the whole living outside of social media bit, which i do pretty well, but then i find people online who are doing both (uggh!). they are keeping their online pages up-to-date with their fun dailies/weeklies. then after the countless hours of checking those out wanting to do the same… or simply just looking for ideas to write about, i find myself suddenly too sleepy to post any of my own “dailies/weeklies” = procrastinate, then procrastinate some more and then i’m officially weeks behind. silver lining – yey for living or boo for being lazy !?!?

then i set myself up with a list of things i want to implement on here, like seriously what other bloggers are doing. but shortly after getting inspired, i’m thinking that won’t work for me because my train of thought isn’t as interesting as these stimulating bloggers …for example; “the sunday currently” was/is something a lot of bloggers started doing every sunday, which asks the same set of writing points. seriously kudos to them who were able to because they actually have interesting concepts or selves to answer with. so let’s pretend it’s sunday right now – even though it’s 2 in the morning on a tuesday (yey staycations rule-cause i can stay up as late as i want to)…

(MY PRETEND SUNDAY) C U R R E N T L Y . . .
R E A D I N G  nothing (just watching). i really do wish i could commit to more reading.
W R I T I N G  this blog (would be my answer everytime) – I lied, just finish writing on my 5 YR Q&A hahaha interesting
L I S T E N I N G  to the TV (lol yes i’m a cable tv type of person)
T H I N K I N G  if i should change the layout again for this blog. i could consider buying the editable version of wordpress, but then i realize i really doubt i want to get into any basic html now-a-days. i know it has changed significantly from when i used to update my AA page. sigh*
S M E L L I N G  my hair, yep i think that’s my hair because (if this was a real sunday) i haven’t washed it yet and i’m too lazy to, and then i would go on thinking i seriously need a haircut.
W I S H I N G  oh there you go, i wish i could get a haircut.
W E A R I N G  pajamas. a hair tie. a blanket.
L O V I N G  him.hers.nanay – loving that i’m still alive and blah blah blah hahah
W A N T I N G  breakfast (assuming i would actually do this right at noon EST – which would call for breakfast) then i’d be writing how i should really tell J to get to cooking, assuming he’s finally awake.
N E E D I N G  food cause i’m starting to get a headache.
F E E L I N G  hungry (yes because any train of thought i usually have leads to food and only food)

i mean who wants to read the same answers every Sunday. i know *insert virtual wink here* that participating in such routines actually encourages you to do what you should be writing about. i’m suddenly finding it such a tedious task and then i start to wonder why i’m still on here, why i keep this blog. hahah, pfft. i know why – i like the easy creative outlet (even though it’s so hard to make time for), i like the freedom of writing what i want to write about and read about in the future, i like the entertainment factor of re-reading what i wrote days/months/years from now or ago. the benefits of having a blog always outweighed the bad, now it’s just a matter of learning to love it like i used to, learning to seriously just write what i think, what i feel, what i need to look forward to or change.

just as the quote i have kept on here, since i found it back in the day – “I WRITE TO TASTE LIFE TWICE” – anais. this is why i have this my brain’s little public home. this year has been a rollercoaster in real life, it’s about time to really put them to perspective on here with a creative twist every once in a while.

&_then i found miss sunday currently founder write this recently – i wish i was able to articulate as well as she did, absolutely how i’m feeling about my online identity lately – http://siddathornton.blogspot.ca/2014/09/lets-simplify.html
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