Last rant of the Year – FY11

every year right after christmas, i’d catch myself looking back and try to pin point the things that went right, wrong, sideways and upside down. this year it happened during a random night of meeting up with the girls at our new favorite spot ‘jacka-s’. we cheered for every bad, good, ok, moments that came to mind. of course it was before dinner, so the gulps got us tipsy quickly.

some highlights of this year for myself would be:
– surviving long distance with boyfriend
– dominican republic
– back to back social nights
– lost friends, gained new ones
– career development
– boyfriend and i verbally moving our relationship forward
– cousins getting engaged
– financially getting stable, slowly but surely

Since all of that is out of my system… Time to celebrate the upcoming year. 2012 is estimated at being my biggest year thus far. and if it was to end in 12.12.12, all i’d have to say is, i wouldn’t have had it any other way. live without regret and always look forward to the happiness, sorrow, hurt and excitement. By this time next year i vow to have gained more wisdom, wit, and humor during the dailies. i am excited to make new routines, see new places, experience and learn new things. kick off old habits and turn them into good ones. say goodbye to the old me and embrace the new me i’m about to become.

There’s nothing better than the feeling of seeing tomorrow unfold and it exceeding expectations. I’ve been known to have low expectations but still, everything has a ceiling, mine is just as short as I am, that’s all. I’ve been blessed truly, and all I have to do is thank all the way.

So here’s to a new year – cheers!

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Wishlisting

Shortly after hallowe’en people starts wishlisting for those special people in their lives to make things easier, clearer of the things they want to see under the tree. I don’t know about you guys, but shortly after my 23rd birthday, I fell off the wishlisting wagon. Started disregarding Christmas and all things associated with it. I don’t get the holiday cheer, frankly it’s in and out for me. And as I look back on those earlier years, I would be lying if I said I loved Christmas.

Don’t get me wrong I like the togetherness that the holiday brings. But when my mom started working overnight causing her to miss Christmas eve festivities, I’ve gotten drawn out of it all even more. I look forward to seeing family only to realize, how & why is it the only time we put aside time. The thing I love more is the time wasted, the catching up… The food. Is it possible to only enjoy Christmas when kids are involved? Receiving materialistic things that deem to make them happy for a couple of weeks.

I’m sure it’s just my own type of jadedness when I say these things but when, when can you ever just sit and reflect when all we do is worry about our wishlists.

I just have to keep reminding myself that it’s a much needed break for most people. It’s a time to not want to be alone, to finally feel like your a part of someone’s life other than their own.

The only thing on my wishlist lately has been to be left alone. But deep inside all I wish to do is create new traditions, ones I could adhere to, one I can call my own, one I could see being passed on for generations to come. For those of you reading this, stick to your traditions, new, old, don’t matter. It’s the little things that count. Hang on to that warmth that the holiday brings along in your individual households, keep it dear & cherish it like the first snowfall of the season.