so a year ago I vowed to myself to keep blogging. obviously I didn’t but it was so much nicer to have everything fit in one agenda. as much as I love my new-numbfounded iPhone it just doesn’t capture everything. I used to write everything down. I was always tempted to do so because I have what you would call it as selective short term memory lost. but the fact is that I want everything to be set up the way I want it to. then shabbam after 6-8 months I finally do it.
Alot has happened since the last time I blogged, but then again I have nothing to show for it. I am so inconsistent that I wouldn’t even hire myself as a secretary for myself. The irony is I’m an admin and somehow I can assist others with their stuff and yet I can’t do mine.
Week after week my list gets longer and longer…of to dos that is. I hate you Sheila for not taking care of me. Hahaha like I could blame anybody else.
Last week I had a revelation. I wrote a long ass email to ate ems about letting go and how to let go in good terms. Suddenly it hit me…why don’t I write like that anymore.
I learned today what my insides have been trying to get out. I am not done uncovering who I really am. I don’t know what I want. I don’t know where I want to go and how I am going to get there. It would help to have some data files to refer to during those times of self-recovery or better yet self revelations and discovery.
I have however been reading. I have gotten back to speaking good English again. Hahahah. As if I can really ace Tagalog grammer. …but the books I have read has really made me think. There’s been movies I really wanted to quote. I wanna put all those inspiring poems and words of wisdom somewhere I could see…something tangible I can look at everyday. I have been careless and it would take a lot of time getting myself together again.
Operation puzzle pieces starts today. I have a month to get goals in place…first…25 is a time to start over and start living.